"It all started really well............on such a great and positive note that it was too difficult to see that anything could be any better than this. Such wondrous effect it had on me that I never bothered to even imagine if there could be a lop side to all this goodness at some point of time in life. So lost, was I, enthralled by these moments and i was trying to savour the beauty of this continuum in my life.
Surprisingly, I realised that my interests were in thoughts and ideas, which were a bit ......... what do you say.......... esoteric, philosophical, queer, depressing, pessimistic...........? who cares? but certain things interested me, so much so that i could sense the gradual movement from the shallows to the depths. As I was going deep, not getting lost though, in an effort to assimilate and comprehend the experiences of this journey, things just turned ............ what should i say .........took a turn which i didn't relish and not able to reconcile to"............. the narration suddenly stopped. It was then followed by a loud silence, and the discussion ended for the day.
So here am, looking at things ............... a journey on a boat.....(let us for a minute assume that the boat is sensitive, sensible and responsive to feelings and events), on a lake which is otherwise placid, a simple boat with no jazzy adaptations, where you will be at the mercy of nature's might and its vast expanse..... all passengers on board. Halfway through, lake placid is not lake placid any more for some mysterious reason. Catastrophe hits and all on board earlier, are now deep inside the lake.
The question is, should the boat feel lonely and depressed? Is it the fault of the lake that a mishap happened or should it be construed as part of the process? Should the boat be stoic or objective? Or is this all part of the big journey undertaken?
If the boat were to feel so lonely, what would help it? Any external source or just a deep inner realisation?
It is still bobbing............
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If the boat construes it to be a process of nature then the feeling of loneliness is also a part and parcel of the process. It should be analysed but should not be absorbed. The lesson it should learn from lake placid is that one should never be overly attached to anything , be it material or abstract. This lesson also applies to the lesson learnt from the lesson.
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